Of course, I felt jealous; I'm not going to hide it, but I feel much less of that once Chris and I had an impromptu conversation about it.
I told him that I don't like the idea of following a social schedule. Everyone expects us to get married around 30, have a house, then have a kid. Why? Why must it be like this?
And why does it bother me so much that when I see my contemporaries get married and have a kid, I get so like....."Wow, really? How can they? So fast?" Then, I would have these voices in my head, "What am I doing? Why am I not having what they are having?"
Why am I not married?
Why do I not have a house yet?
Why don't I want children yet? (You know, they say when women get to a certain age, they start having maternal feelings......WHY don't I have these feelings????)
If I'm not doing these things, then what exactly have I been doing?
Working. Studying. Reading. Need I say more?
Why? Why? Why?
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