The gift of writing

I've been given these gifts - the ability to write, read, and analyze.

These skills have enabled me to get through the education system fairly well, but now as I have gone through the system and have gone as far as I could go, I don't know what to do with myself.

I've gone through the system and I've lost myself in the process.  Somewhat jaded, I don't believe in the education system anymore.  How can it help people?  How can going to lectures every week educate my students?  How will that help them to become better individuals, productive individuals for the society?  There are plenty of examples of people who have gone and done great things because they have dropped out of school.  Steve Jobs, anyone?  There are also plenty people who did not quite fit into the 'perfect student' mould but are great.

So, what is my role in this system?  What is my proper role?  What should I do and how should I do it?  Can someone show me the manual?

I am an example of someone who has succeed in the system.  As I've heard one brilliant mind said before, "The education system is designed to create professors."  Well, I've done that, but I feel like an utter failure.  I'm supposed to know what is right, what is wrong, how to do things correctly, how not to do things....I'm supposed to know the answers --- but I simply don't.

While my colleagues seem so certain about what they are doing, why is it that I feel the very opposite?  While they seem so certain about their research, their viewpoints, their ideas, their course of direction, why is it that I don't?

How can they be so sure that what they are doing is right? Right for whom?  And right for what?