....when I say I've tried to put this post up for weeks, I really did.
It's just that a storm is brewing and brewing....and brewing....and now, I'm just forcing the rain drops to fall, so to speak. It's not easy.
For the past 2 weeks or so, Chris and I have been discussing and going back and forth on the issue of marriage. I'm leaving to see my parents later this week and won't be back until a month later. So, Chris and I won't be able to talk about anything for a month.
If you work out the schedule, Chris should be popping the question sometime this summer - maybe after when I get back - if we plan to marry next summer.
Hence, this is why we've been talking....why we have started talking.
It all began at McD's (where else?), but it got interrupted because he had to board his train midway into our discussion. Mind you, that was also the last time I would see him until I get back later this month. Ever since then, we've been trying to continue the conversation on the phone and that hardly ever goes well given that we both work full time during the day. By the time he gets off from work, it's already 11:30...so it just doesn't really work. We tried.
See what I mean? This storm is still brewing and that's why I can't get to my point.
The point is...seems to be....what marriage means to me. After dating Chris for 5 years, how would marriage change our relationship? And why is it that only marriage will induce these changes? If we don't get married, then these changes won't happen?
These are the questions that I've been asking Chris. And for him, it seems like I'm asking something that is so obvious.
I'm pretty sure I have the answer as to what marriage means to me and why I am stuck on this marriage thing. I'm still working it out in my head; hence, the storm. I should have good news soon (or bad news, who knows?).
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