Mentality

Chris and I will be traveling very soon and while we are making all the preparations such as buying the backpack and getting the supplies, I realize that I have yet to prepare myself for all the changes that will come our way this summer.

I was talking to a colleague this morning and he informed me that his wife, who also teaches at our department, has accepted a job elsewhere.  They will be moving by the end of the term in May.  I said, "That's great!  You guys will be closer to home!"

He said, "Well, it's mostly because of the kid (they just had a baby a few months ago) and we don't want him to grow up here."  I can understand.  It is really too crowded here and the smog and air pollution shoots up the roof all the time.

He said, "Besides, I need to finish up my PhD this year.  I really need to get a job, you know, with the kid and all."

I said, "For sure...."

So, they will have some big changes going on in their lives.  And after talking to me, I realize that I will be going through some big changes myself and I haven't really taken it all in yet.

Like yesterday, I had my first class and I kept telling Chris that this was all unreal to me.  I suppose I can't grasp these two very opposing lifestyles that I'm leading at the moment.  On the one hand, I'm reading about exotic places, thinking about building a company, pursuing my passion, and all the wonderful stuff that I look forward to.  On the other hand, I also have this life that's happening right now: going to working in the department, teaching 2 courses, making ppts, dealing with emails....and just routines that are becoming more and more meaningless to me. 

So, how do I deal? 

I realize I have yet to mentally grasp all that, which is why I feel weird....out of sort, so to speak. 

What can I do?