4 years ago (approx.), I was in the library photocopying some readings. I looked down and there was a couple on the rooftop of the Main Building taking wedding pictures. If I remember correctly, the girl was dressed in a white gown and the guy, I think, was also in white.
And yes, our library was that tall and our Main Building was that short.
I was going through a, now looking back, a waste-of-my-time breakup back then. But at the time as I was starring down the window, I probably shed a tear or two and felt depressed that it didn't work out. Thank god it didn't work out.
Now in 2011, I'm in my big window office and I can still see the same rooftop of that building. I looked at it today and nope, no couples there. It's interesting.....that feeling you get when you experience something like that. Mixed feelings....? Whatever it's called, it just makes you space-out a little. And it's nice.
I still have that same dream/nightmare from time to time. That dream about being single/losing Chris. *Ok, you all can laugh at me here* But I've had that dream for about 1 year now.....and I told Chris about it and he was genuinely concerned.
I really think that part of me still can't believe I'm not single. Note: Chris and I have been together for 4+ something years now. (Yes, I'm that slow). In highschool, everyone had a boyfriend, everyone was going to parties, everyone was cool. And now, I'm actually part of the normal group - I have a decent job, a stable relationship, and everything is going great. I guess it's different from what I'm used to.
I can't believe it's real! It's just like what happens in my dream. I would wake up one day and realize that all this was never real.
Hum......it's not as serious as it sounds. But then again, I don't think it's good to be having these dream either.
Zooe
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