Set fiiiiire to the rain.....

....well, that's what I've been listening on repeat recently.  Actually, I've been looping Adele non-stop these days.

By the way, I burned my hand yesterday when I was cooking.  Now there's a burnt mark on my right hand. Hope it won't leave a scarrrrr.

I finished highschool in 5 years (a breeze, really).  Finished university in 4 (as the degree required). Got through my Masters in 1 year (it was long enough).  And I completed my PhD in 4 years - again, just as the degree required.

In all of the above cases, I did what was required.  Finished on time, got  the results, and moved on.  With Chris?  Not like that.  These rules do not apply.

We've been together for 4 and something years now.  No degree, no certificate, no whatever.  It's still a work in progress.  As you can see (or maybe cannot), this result deviates from everything I did before.

After what is considered a long enough dating period, after the fact that I finished school, after having finished pretty much what I was suppose to finish in the first part of my life, we are still no quite there.  In fact, all can turn to dust with one simple "There's a thing you need to go to today."

Where did I go wrong?  Didn't I do everything that I was supposed to do? I didn't cheat on exams, I didn't drink or do drugs.  I didn't stay out late and party.  I didn't.  I did exactly what everyone was supposed to do.  But the outcome so far has not been the same as everyone else.

This is definitely the wrong way to think.

I don't know how to think - how to think about this so that it will be alright.

So, for the time being, I can only set fire to the rain.
Let it burn, burn, burn.