Did I say too much?

I got summoned to an administrative meeting again. 

This time, it was the Faculty Review, aka, performance evaluation of the Faculty of Social Sciences to which the Department of Politics and Public Administration belongs (my department).

I tried to refuse the so-called invitation by the department secretary, but no avail.  The secretary tracked down my schedule for the day and said that I could make it to meeting scheduled at 5pm.  Alright, I gave in.

Usually, more often than not, I do not hesitate going to these meetings.  In fact, I enjoy going to them because I feel very humbled that I can have an opportunity to represent the department.  But this time, I don't want to go because I feel like I don't have anything constructive to say.

The interesting thing is that the review panel appeared to have done some homework on us the participants.  Seeing that no one volunteered to break the silence, they called on some of us who they thought were interesting cases.  I was one of them because I had a relatively smooth career path i.e. I did the PhD and worked in the same department.

Looking back, I don't exactly remember what I said.  All I remember is that I talked about my own experience a lot, which I suppose was the point.  But still, you know, I'm not sure whether that was what I was supposed to do.

In any case, I'm not sure how I feel about this whole Faculty Review experience.  I'm not sure what will come out it.  Will there be change as result of the findings?  The skeptic in me obviously thinks that things will remain the same.  But I do hope that things will be different.